A horrendous night

Thursday night/Friday morning was a horrendous night. I almost went to the ER, although I have no faith in them since my last visit.

I could not sleep. My chest was pounding. It felt like it was thumping in my throat, and I could feel the beating in my ears and throughout my head. I honestly felt like I was going to die, it was so awful. Finally, about 2am, I took an extra half of my bp pill (which my dr has ok'd) and lay there, on my side, doing deep breathing and somehow sleep came.

My dr had messaged me that she wanted me to come in earlier, for my appointment, so by 3pm I was duly ensconced in the waiting area.

Nurse Chris came to take me for the labs, and Lynn gave us the bad news that it had to be sent out and they wouldn't pick up after lunch ... and I made an utter idiot of myself and had a weepy meltdown. I was just so afraid, and couldn't face another night like the one before.

They were so great with me. I just felt so helpless.

Well Dr. Smith decided she'd do an EKG while I was there, and that came out that my heart was fine, so this was not a "heart problem" per se, which was wonderful news. She was disappointed about the bloodwork, and I have orders to get it done first thing Monday, which I will be doing. I laughed with Lynn (who has worked with me for over 10 years now over my phobia of having blood drawn, where now I am almost like a normal person, having it done. No passing out or hitting the floor, no veins clamping down, no swooning!) that this must be the only time I've ever WANTED her to take my blood.

Dr Smith, in the absence of the lab work, but with  the EKG result saying my heart was fine, and having listened to everything I had told her about the past few days, agreed it might be a good idea to stick to low potassium foods until we get the results.

During that discussion, I again got weepy. I cannot believe that eating healthy has, again, made me sick. All the foods I love, my salad stuffs like tomatoes, and spinach leaves, my fruits like bananas, kiwi, peaches, my snacks with nuts in,  all high in potassium. I ate so unhealthily yesterday, but managed to not have the pounding heartrate ... a Milky Way, hubby's frosted miniwheats, and the only healthy thing really was my wholegrain bread with a Laughing Cow spready cheese! I had bites of the Milky Way or a couple of frosted miniwheats throughout the day.

I was even worried about my multivitamin, as it contains 100% of daily needs, of potassium, but I've started taking one gummi instead of the 2 it says,  and she said that was ok. She also said my melatonin/lavender sleep aid was ok.

On a good note, even with all the stress, my BP was brilliant, AND I'd lost another 8lbs! That's 36lbs gone so far. Such a blessing!

Keep praying for me and thinking positive thoughts. I need them so much! I do appreciate them all.

Have a lovely Saturday, my friends :)