Friday, July 1, 2016

Failure Is Not An Option!

"Failure is not an option!" is one of my outlooks on life. It goes with my business, because if I fail at my AVON, I have nothing else that I can fall back on. Everything else that I have done throughout my life has required some pretty good physical activity -  and that's something I can no longer include in any equation. Walking to the rest room or to the kitchen is a major effort on my part, sometimes a very painful and treacherous trek. So I HAVE to persevere and work it to the best of my CURRENT ability, not allow the "what ifs" or "used tos" get in the way of letting me keep going NOW. Doing what I need to. One step in front of the other, just consistently plodding along.

Funny, because today today the "failure is not an option" changed to "cancer is not an option" as I found myself chatting to the technician who was trying to do the second set of mammogram pics in 2 weeks, the first ones having shown "something" that they wanted to look at more closely.

My careful weighing of all my risk factors for breast cancer kept me sufficiently bouyed - I'd breast fed 3 babies, albeit one only for a month, I didn't smoke or drink alcohol, and wasn't  taking oestrogen. The only downer was my weight, being clinically obese is not good.  

So, I'd stayed in reasonable spirits until chatting with Jackie, and in the middle of explaining how  I'd be messed up if it was a malignancy (since I cannot have anaesthesia) I suddenly blurted out "cancer is not an option, I couldn't do that to my husband!" At that moment, I realised that (for me) it couldn't be. My hubby had been a 12 year old boy who had watched his mother get sicker and sicker, and finally succumb to breast cancer back in 1976. I could not do that to him, I could not put him through what he had suffered back then, now, and with me.

She did the mammograms and went to have the doctor check them, I sat and hummed "God is great, all the time" and prayed that I wouldn't need the ultrasound. 

Jackie came back and explained they still couldn't really tell, that what they were looking at only showed from one angle but hadn't shown on the other pics, so they were going to go ahead with the sonogram. My positivity did slip a notch, l admit, but I prayed a bit more asked that it just turn out to be something not serious.

I had 2 lovely ladies working together to do the ultrasound, one actually doing the scan, one manipulating images and such on another computer screen. Thankfully, after they were done and things were checked, the general consensus was that it is benign, but they want me back in 6 months "just to make sure there's no change".

I am so thankful for that result. God is so good. I made my appointment for January and came out far more relieved than I had been feeling half hour before!

We met up with my granddaughter and her kiddies, Daniel, and Sami, at Chick-Fil-A on Woodruff Rd. Daniel had fun playing in the playroom, and made lots of temporary new friends. After eating lunch, and parting ways, we hit up the European Market for English and German goodies, grabbed jerk turkey, chipotle Gouda cheeses and bread rolls from Publix for sarnis later on, delivered an AVON order to one of my customers, hubby restocked brochures in Ingles in Mauldin, and we dropped off my library book and they ALREADY had one that I had only requested last night online! I LOVE the folks at Mauldin Library, they are awesome!

So now I'm home and kind of relaxing, but have some work to do with getting some advertising out there for the upcoming week. Just enjoying listening to and singing/humming along with Mark Knopfler's Golden Heart CD.

For those interested, there are some sweet deals and freebies coming up on my AVON website

 
I hope you have an awesome evening, and an absolutely wonderful July 4th weekend. Make memories with your families and friends.


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